A Terrible Day

Ahhhhhh, peace and quite at last. No more crying, whining or complaining for the day. Hebron and I had originally planned to leave the boys with my sister and hang out with some good friends in Sacramento and do fun things. I was looking forward to it all week because I had a hard week. While I was going through my week, I forgot to remind my sister about babysitting today. So she forgot and we ended up having to bring the boys with us on our 2 hrs drive. Like I mentioned before, Joshua hates car ride and cannot sit for such a long time. Basically, he will cry and whine until we let him out.

On the way there I was upset at my sister for ruining my plans to have some alone time with my friends and I can't stand Joshua's cry. So we caved in and gave him his pacifier and he immediately fell asleep. He played and did well at lunch. When 4 pm rolls around I knew he was tired because he didn't nap enough and was sick, but he didn't want to nap. So he was one grumpy child. He cried over everything and anything. That was really irritating because I was hoping for a childless day, but now not only do I have to take care of him, I have to bear his grumpiness. Then on the drive home he really needed to nap, but was soo grumpy that he kept fighting it and cried for an entire hour. He went from crying to whining to crying to screaming. Right there, I felt like my day was completely ruined and I was cheated out of a little adult time with friends.

I have always knew that being a parent meant to be willing to sacrifice and be selfless. And I am willing to sacrifice many things for my children. I would not buy things for myself and save the money to get things for them. I am willing to give up my career or slow it down for the sake of them. God has changed me so much inorder that I can be a good example to them. But I am still kinda selfish with my time. I really need and enjoy just a little time doing things that I like to do. Some times giving up my "personal time" is the part about parenthood that I am still struggling with. Now that Joshua is asleep and not irritating me, I have time to calm down, rest and come to my senses. Joshie is usually really good and enjoyable, but when he doesn't get his nap and is sick, then he becomes unbearable. Since I am a Mom at ALL times, I should learn to be willing to sacrifice my rights to "personal time."